Dear Good Eden Family: It’s been a wild year. More than wild. We started with a pandemic and now we’re in the middle of civil war -so to speak-. I honestly cannot think of the right words to fit on this post about what’s going on. Even thought it’s not new to me, in a way it is. I didn’t grow up in this country. Mexico has a very low, almost non existent population of black people, so, it is the first time I’ve experienced and witnessed what is happening. 

 I come from a mixed family, and so does Goshi, and it’s always been confusing for me to check off the boxes when asked what “race” I am… Latin? Caucasian? Huh? I just think I’m a human with a beautiful mixed lineage. And that’s the beauty of colors and different heritage. It makes this world be filled with diversity and It expands us to learn from each other. And one of the reasons I moved to New Orleans was because of this diversity. 

I’ve been trying to just soak in all that is happening and educate myself, because even though I have experienced and heard hurtful comments about Mexicans, I by no means think that my suffering compares to anyone, especially not minorities within our society. I am aware of it based on the experiences of those around me, and the ease at which I pass through life. I don’t understand what it’s like to be black, and I never will, and I’ll never claim to. But I have experienced why the #‎blacklivesmattermovement needs to matter. 

For now, I don’t know what to say, or do, or act, it just does not feel right for me at the moment, while I am still learning all of this. I’m deeply sad this is a reality. I never imagined it to move so much in me emotionally, and I want to learn as much as I can. Conversations with friends and family have opened up and gotten rough, but that’s what needs to happen. I apologize if I’m not doing better, and will continue to educate myself to BE better. I I will continue to watch, read, give and hold space within my possibilites. 

I’m a wholehearted supporter of #blacklivesmatter and I will be until I die. Anything less means I wouldn’t be doing my duty as a human being.